Infinate Ignorance

So here is a little bit of rambling out of my head. I just typed it out as I thought it, so it isn't necessarily pretty or poetic. You may even find it confusing, but I too get muddled in my own thoughts sometimes:

I am constantly shocked, surprised, and convicted about how little I know of people. One of my major faults is that I am very quickly judgmental of someone, even when I don’t actually know them, their thoughts, true feelings, circumstances, recent happenings or struggles. I don’t know their hearts, and so often it’s far more than I ever imagine or give them credit for.

I like to try and figure people out, but the more I try the more I realize I don’t know. I’d like to think that I can know and understand someone, but I’m actually so naive to what’s really going on. I think I can perceive or “figure them out”, and then I find out something and realize that I was utterly wrong. I could only see their actions, but I was never aware of their hearts.

I always have the stumbling block of my own thoughts, perceptions, judgments, and others opinions that cause me to be blind to who they really are. I may think I’ve got a pretty good idea until I fall over that barricade that I didn’t know was there. Constantly I find myself falling face first, and never being aware of my blindness until I tripped. I get so frazzled over it all, too. I want to know…oh so badly I want to know people. I mean, really know them. I want to understand their hearts, and I want to know what’s actually going on.

But I can never know everything…that’s only for God. A friend told me that I just have to trust the Lord with the information I have. I need to ask the Lord for wisdom in my estimation of people, and I need to be extremely careful of how I judge them. I need to love them for who they are even if they aren’t “my kind” of person. I have so far to go…oh so far.

The Lord keeps pointing this out to me. There have been so many times in the last few weeks that I’ve learned something new from someone, I’ve been enlightened on something, or I’ve been able to see another side that again and again I’ve been shocked at how little of the puzzle I could really see. I’m only one little person in an immense world of people, circumstances, emotions, pain, secrete thoughts, backgrounds, buried anger, and people seeking the Lord’s will. It’s so hard to know…and therefore I must lean on the Lord even more. In my ignorance I must trust in the Lord’s infinite knowledge. 

Proverbs 3:5 says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding:
Isaiah 55:8-9 says, "'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,' declares the Lord, 'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways.'"
Proverbs 28:26a says, "He who trusts in his own heart is a fool..."